I ain't the poorest people in the world

Like a week ago, I found these 3 pieces of my diary books. As reading it slowly and absorbed at whatever I ever wrote there (also realizing how I was such a dreadful human being for 10-5 years in the past); I feel like even for now, in this brand new 2014, I still havent change significantly, meaning my life still so-so with no huge impact for others. Please I dont have any good impact for myself either. Once there was old me wrote on one end of my diary page: Do every human always think that they are the poorest people in the world? Believe me, it is hard to think you are not, when you surrounded by amazing and incredible human being which achieve what you did not even dare to dream. I learn how to be grateful once in a while, and compel my mind to be positive as possible but alas, it is indeed hard. Not to mention, when you walk into the 'beauty' of being 20-ish, everything around revolves messily and you tend to lose sanity. It doubled or tripled mess for a people like me who ignorant enough to never making such things like life roadmap, life target/resolution, or even just listing off dreams (I actualIy did it once or twice but thats it, I dont even know why am I stopping). If you ask me now, "what do you really want then?" ...well, I dont have any good answers. This bugs me for a while (more like half a year actually) until today I blocked all my laziness to share this uber great reading.
Click here

Maybe I ever stumbled upon that kind of article several time but maybe again I wasnt in my clear state of mind so it is regrettably wasted. This time though, maybe I just need to be triggered a bit to realize that having 'me, the poorest human being' attitude is not right, and pathetic. Yes, I am not the best in any aspect yet achieve nothing impactful but still.. you have to know your life mean something. Let me sum up a bit some points of my favorite manifestos from article above:

1. Prestige is like a powerful magnet that warps even your beliefs about what you enjoy. It causes you to work not on what you like, but what you’d like to like.

2. One of the interesting things about success is that we think we know what it means. A lot of the time our ideas about what it would mean to live successfully are not our own.

3. The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.

4. This is your life. Do what you love, and do it often.

God, let this feel will continuously linger from now on so everytime I feel like a piece of crap I know that life is more than that. I believe if we struggle enough, life will embrace us beautifully (its hard to write motivational things like that when I actually feel worse hahaha *plain laugh* God dont let me be that kind of person who only say things but cant do). Oh and off course, I have to share this one from my favorite quote of a seems-mediocre-at first-but-turned out-really-heartmoving-in the end movie with brilliant messages ever, Remember Me (2010). 

Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it. Because nobody else will. Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we've touched.

Stay positive as you can,

-Icha

I am Taken.. by TV-Series

Morning!

I am soaking my laundry now, so it seems I have to wait like another hour before continuing my activities. Meanwhile, last night I (finally) tried to watch Dexter TV series. Yes it is old, I watched 4 episodes from the first season (2006) but indeed maybe years ago I can barely watched it. To be honest after feed up my eyes with The Walking Dead for a last month, my limit to see/watch some kind disturbing pictures had changed. It is okay for me now to watch blood splattering from blunt objects against any parts of human bodies but ugh it still gross and I am sure cant manage watching it live.

Anyhow the purpose of this post actually is.. telling you how my life recently changed in this past half year. As I manage to see myself I am quite a movie-goer (with broad sense of genres) and I had this habbit to write a review (or at least a list) of movie which I watched in a year since 2010. Some of them can be read on this blog or on my tumblr here and for some reasons I also started to watch tv series. My first encounter of tv series maybe happened few years back when F.R.I.E.N.D.S was broadcasted on the local channel but I was at an age which didnt understand any of it. High school era was superb when I never missed any episodes of Supernatural or Smallville there. At some point, I cant call myself tv series junkie but I do know some of them. These last 6 months was the jackpot, I watched like 3-4 tv series which I requested to my friend (so he can downloaded it from indowebster, yeah I know 'the power of net-world'). Now I drowned on it. Those some tv series up here consuming my time much more than my thesis. Chita introduced me to Doctor Who few months ago and now I basically adore the series much.

        

        

Broadchurch*The Walking Dead*Nodame Cantabile*Game of Thrones*Lie To Me*Doctor Who*Skins*Sherlock

Watching tv series from outside country always end with me contemplating why Indonesian tv series (or what ppl here call it sinetron) never can be that good. Nevertheless, I cant judge, because everything so different. Almost all sinetron which now broadcasted on local channel focusing on social life, I hardly find any other than drama genre. The story itself, actually just so simple (I recalling that Tukang Bubur Naik Haji was a short movie before they know made to be one of the current longest sinetron) but that simple plot seems to be dragged away and lost its focus. Cant blame the production team though because the rating actually good, my mom and granma still watch it and maybe million of people out there too. If only production people start to manage how to produce sinetron like they produce a movie, it will be like a piece of art. If some of us remember Bunda with Dinna Olivia and Meriam Belina as the cast was pretty good (and short, if compared to others so called successful sinetron episodes). Indonesian movies were good lately with broader various of genres so maybe later.. our tv series can be more worth to watch too.

Well, it seems an hour had passed and I need to do my laundry now. Catch ya later.

Bye,

Icha

KRS dan SHINee

Oke judul di atas emang ga nyambung banget tapi sumpah hari ini kayaknya otak gue cuma kebagi buat dua hal ini KRS dan SHINee *lebay mode: on, dont blame me* Dari pagi waktu buka grup GFM46 di fb buat pertama kali anak-anak udah pada riweuh mau KRS-an. Minta pada janjian atau apa lah. Dan gue... gue nyantai banget, beneran nyantai berasa ga mau nerusin kuliah lagi. Kedua (kapan ada 'Pertama'nya coba) gue dari kemaren dicekokin putri sama SHINee, dan sampe sekarang itu lagu Ring Ding Dong ga bisa ilang dari kepala gue, bagus Put you drove me crazy.

Serius deh, masalah KRS ini emang ngelantur kemana-mana. Lagian aneh, masa jadwal antar mata kuliah mayor bentrok. Lucu banget. Kasian si komti harus ngurusin ini ke direktorat AJMP. Udah gitu minor gue bentrok semua sama matkul mayor duh, bikin pusing banget deh. Mau ambil SC orang-orang udah pada beringas banget ga menyisakan kursi satu pun buat matkul yang emang gue pengen kayak Amdal Perairan, Sanitasi dan Ketahanan Pangan, dll. Gue baru ambil 18 sks dan itu sayang banget soalnya kapasitas gue masih nyampe 25 sks. Bener-bener deh kuliah bikin pusing, mending kawin aja kali yee -_-

Dan yang ngebikin gue tambah pening adalah... GUE SEKARANG LAGI SHAWOL MODE ON, like serously, their songs were stucked in my head and keep playing forever. Ditambah lagi tadi putri ngajakin karaokean Ring Ding Dong itu. And you know what, we even sang it for four times. How's that eh? Pretty crazy right?
I feel a bit guilty about this, ehm sebelumnya gue kan suka ngeledekin temen gue yang suka SHINee dan sekarang gue kena karma suka sama mereka, yah belum SHINee expert juga sih gue mah tapi tetep aja, judulnya sekarang gue sukaaa *meratap nista*
Belum lagi gue pengen nonton Running Man. Itu variety show emang dongo banget deh. Jaesuk bego hahah. Jong Kook ama Gary lebih-lebih.
Udah ah, ntar gue ngespam lebih banyak lagi cerita Running Man. Ini aja udah banyak bacot kan?

Love, Icha.

seminggu ini...

ehm, lama banget ya ga posting haha maaf
kan ceritanya aku udah di purwokerto gitu (remember? my pre-UAS holiday)
niatnya sih mau rajin posting di rumah dengan memanfaatkan kabel telpon yang ada (baca: telkomnetinstan) tapi entah niat buruk itu selalu ada ganjalannya atau gimana, tiba2 aja laptopku settingannya error, harus diservis dan akhirnya malah dikarantina huhu.
dan setelah beberapa hari yang melelahkan (padahal ga ngapa2in) tibalah hari minggu ini, which means besok aku balik ke bogor, ergh.

dan sebenernya dua hal terjadi seminggu ini, dari yang seneng2 dulu aja:
1. aku ke jogja (lagi) bareng putri (lagi) naik kereta logawa (lagi) nginep di kosnya monik dan ketemu sama mba resty. aku ga kenal dia sih cuma tau doang di twitter. dan seperti orang2 twitter lain, she's effin great :)
2. dan kabar yang buruk adalah AKU GA JADI NONTON COBRA STARSHIP isnt that greattt? why? karena ga ada temen dan aku ga berani minta ijin ke ortu. bagus banget kan? iya saking bagusnya aku sempet nangis

i'm not in the mood to post anything, so huhu udah ya, maaf saya masih berkabung menangisi gabe saporta yang ga jadi aku tonton :(
love, icha

hell yeah COBRA STARSHIP

seperti yang kita semua tau, COBRA STARSHIP mau manggung di sini dan aku sudah sangat-amat-berniat-sekali-banget untuk nonton :)

*sumpah ya itu si ryland ganteng banget hahaha*

tapi kayaknya sesuatu yang agak-tidak-baik (nonton konser masuk hal itu ga sih) selalu ada halangannya ya?
mulai dari:
1. duit men duit. presale festival 295ribu. ga makan berapa hari coba? lebay emang. tapi emang penuh perjuangan tuh ngumpulin duit :( dari kapan lama
2. jadwal kuliah pas konser *haruskah ku memboloooos?* *yes,ofcourse*
3. temen buat nonton. awalnya aku sama luksi udah yakin mau nonton, terus kita bergasil menggaet beberapa orang untuk nonton juga (baca: monik bento andu hafiyan) tapi kabar terakhir hafi ga jadi ikut -ga ada duit katanya- terus luksi sama aku malah bingung untuk nonton karena hal yang terakhir ini...
4. IZIN OARNG TUA. nah itu dia yang bikin bingung :( pasti ibuku ga ngebolehin aku nonton konser. walopun diotnya aku yang ngumpulin sendiriiii. egh.

terus aku harus gimana?
masa mau ga nonton?
ih ga mau :'(
ibu tolong ijinkanlah anakmu ini untuk sedikit ngegaul dengan nonton konser cobra starship :(
tolooong :(
pleaseeeee :(
somebody help meeee :(

love, ICHA

hell-O !

setelah sekian lama ga buka blog ini akhirnya aku buka lagi yaaa haha.
you know what, sekarang aku udah jadi mahasiswa looh :)
IPB institut pertanian bogor

dan monik, apa kabar dia?
udah jadi anak kedokteran UGM universitas gadjah mada jogja.
yeah aku tau, jarak dan waktu memisahkan kita deh haha.
tapi kita masih kontek2an kok.
sama si putri juga (fyi, dia masih di purwokerto, UNSOED tepatnya)

lalu ada apa tiba2 aku pengen posting di sini?
ya ga apa-apa. pengen aja. kangen blogger sih haha. sekian lama idup aku cuma berisi twitter,facebook,tumblr.
kan kasian blog ini telantar haha.
padahal kayaknya dulu aku lumayan rajin ya menghias blog ini haha.

omong2 aku lagi kangen purwokerto.
hell yeah kangen banget.
bogor lagi bikin suntuk, bete ih.
tapi no problemo kan natal besok aku pulang yess!
:)

PULANG

kayaknya itu deh yang paling bisa bikin aku bahagia sekarang.
ketemu bapa-ibu-reza-temen2.
tidur di kasur kamar yang berantakan.
naik motor honda suprafitku tersayang haha. kangen ih.
wisata kuliner sama anak2 kitkat juga
semuanya bikin kangen,soalnya jujur aja ya,belum ada yang bisa ngegantiin mereka semua di sini. mungkin malah GA AKAN ADA.
aku lahir-idup-gede di purwokerto jadi jangan salahin aku dong kalo kayaknya jiwaku ua\dah nempel banget di sana.
iya bogor juga asik kok. banyak temen dan hal baru yangbisa aku temuin di sini tapi..
tapi... banyak hal yang ga bisa bogor kasih ke aku.

oke mubkin postingan ini lebay. tapi suatu saat pasti kalian (yang baca -kalo ada-) pasti bisa ngerasain gimana jauhnya dari rumah.
awalnya aku juga mikir, lah di rumah aja aku sering keluar main, paling ntar ga papa.
tapi nyatanya... nangis nih.

ya udah deh, mau ngomong itu aja.
love, ICHA

post-shitty exams

im back!

baru selese uan nih..
(ya sebenernya sih sekarang hari minggu dan aku udah selese uan dari hari jumat, jadi ga bisa dibilang baru selese juga haha)
10 hari kemaren ga berani onlen.
takut ga bisa nahan diri haha. jadi baru balik ke dunia maya sekarang :)

begitu onlen facebook dan myspace dan twitter, semua orang langsung tanya..
gimana UAN kemaren?
dan kalo anda tanya saya, akan saya jawab, "KAYA EEK!"
bukan bermaksud kasar sama pemerintah juga sih.
tapi merekanya juga keterlaluan. buat soal kaya gitu.
soal matematika kaya soal dewa!
ga ada yang bisa garap. kalo kata papih temenku, buat dosen matematika aja itu masuknya susah.
noh, eek banget kan?
apa ga stres kita dikasih begituan?
ergh. kenangan buruk sumpah!

untungnya pelajaran yang lain masih lumayan gampang (lumayan gampang berarti susah!)
coba kalo matematikanya ga kaya gitu.
mungkin aku bakal optimis buat lulus (walaupun nilai pas-pasan) haha.
ahhh, emang eek banget daaaah sebel.
(btw, bolak balik aku ngomong eek mulu yah? maap deh. emosi)

oiya kemaren ada kejadian bego banget di rumah ayu
gini kurang lebihnya,
putri : eh itu kok ganteng sih bassisnya?
ayu : mana?
putri : itu tuh
icha : iya iya lumayan
monik : la wong katanya dia dulu cowoknya gadis
putri : gadis sih siapa?
terus aku ma monik pandang2an, ma ayu juga terus langsung ketawa keras banget.
huahuahauaha.
terus putri cengok.
(bagi yang ga tau kenapa dan merasa penasaran -padahal ga ada yg penasaran juga- GADIS itu nama majalah)
ga lucu sih kalo diceritain. kalo liat mukanya putri langsung baru deh lucu. heehe.

we've got nothing but time on our hands.
we've got nothing but time on our hands.
love, ICHA

what the hell with me?

counting down to 20th april.
argh help.
i think i have tp start study hard now, but i cant!
yeah i know im kinda a proscascinator
=)

wish me luck for the UAN.
aku ga mau ga lulus laaaaah. what a nightmare.

btw, internet bener2 bikin gila ya?
mau UAN bukannya belajar malah ngenet mulu. tangan berasa gatel kalo liat hp. bawaannya pengen ngenet.
buka myspace lah
facebook lah
twitter lah
tumblr lah
atau blog ini hehe piss

ngomong2 kemaren abis pemilu ya? haha. taukah anda? saya belum kedaftar di DPT. padahal kan aku udah 17 taun!
kan aku pengen nyontreng! (lebai)
kalo kata hasul quick count sih demokrat masih nomer satu.
wah, pak SBY!
i love you pak. mudah2n jadi presiden lagi *kampanye
kata redaksi2 TV sih 10 besar partai yang paling banyak dicontreng itu udah bisa diprediksi.
aneh juga ya sebenernya dari 30 lebih partai, yang eksis ya itu itu aja =0
i never understand how politic rules the world
im not a good citizens ha!
kalo ntar demokrat sama golkar koalisi lagi hua. persenannya udah gede banget noh.
tapi aku pribadi entah kenapa pengen SBY njabat lagi hehe.
pak prabowo sebenernya juga oke sih. mengingat daftar kelebihannya yang sangat panjang.
mungkinkah kalau demokrat koalisi sama gerindra? haha. *my fool wish
eh btw kok jadi ngomongin politik... ?

ngomong2 lagi kemaren abis liat agen codybanks (untuk ke berapa kalinya?) hahaha. frankie muniz ama hillary duff masih culun (pake banget)
sekarang ih wow. sudah sangat berbeda. haha

oke deh, aku mau niat belajar.
belajar bahasa indonesia maybe?
atau bahasa inggris aja lah, yang ga kebanyakan ngitung. haha.
membuka rumus fisika dan menghitung matematika sangat malesin hehe.
astaghfirullah ga boleh gitu.
inget cha. UAN 10 hari lagi. ehm

i loom into the stars but i can never have them
i can never have them
love, ICHA

tiba tiba merasa begini..

well..
ini tanggal 31 maret, berarti 20 hari lagi bakalan UAN.
dan otomatis aku deg-degan
bukan cuma deg-degan karena takut ga bisa ngerjain soal nantinya..
tapi deg-degan, takut.. pisah sama temen2.
HUAAAA.

tau tau, mungkin kaya gitu dibilang lebay,
ih tapi perasaan itu tak mau pergi dari hatikuu! (yah lebay beneran deh ini)
coba bayangin 2 taun kita bareng!
dan anehnya kita baru mulai kompak eh bukan baru mulai deket setaun ini!
dan itu ga cukup buat aku pribadi,
aku pengen banget ngabisin lebih banyak waktu sama mereka.
iya sih tiap malem minggu kita suka kelayaban kemana2 di purwokerto sini aja (yup, so if any of you see a crowd -let say, 10-15 teenagers- ruin your satnite, IT US!)

waktu survei ke pelosok desa buat foto

-nonton di bioskop buluk lah
-ke mall (sebenernya ga bisa disebut mall juga)
-karokean ampe tempat karokenya tutup
-naik motor dari utara sampai ke selatan kota (dengan kata lain, sampai bensin habis)
-ke PANGANDARAN rame2
-maksa traktir sekelas kalo ada yg ulang taun
-jadi best supporter di SFL
tapi teteppp ga cukup!

lesehan di depan kelas *nutupin jalan pas istirahat*

hah! tolong, aku bener2 terserang sindrom apa ini namanya tapi yang jelas aku ga mau pisaaaah! (tapi masih pengen lulus sih -ya iyalah- dan kuliah)

mudah2an besok pas kita lulus semua, AMIN.
we dont get lost contact.
hiks, terharu.
udah ah, lagi semesteran nih, mau belajar dulu (tapi boong)
love, ICHA

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I used to think that I’m not okay

And then it’s happen

It becomes a reality

My life is really not okay

I’m getting blind of everything

I paralyzed to do something

Am I wrong to say this?

Do human always have similar character?

Almost everybody thinks this:

“Me= the poorest people in the world”

Am I wrong?

Am I right?

Am I cursed?

we such a PROSCRASCINATOR

you know what folks,
kita (yep ini monik ama icha lagi onlen bareng) mau mengakui satu hal.
we are such a proscrascinator
alias penunda nunda pekerjaan

we looked at ourself and what we found?
kita harusnya lagi ngerjain tugas TIK. suruh buat presentasi berbasis web gitu deh (aliasnya ya bikin web!) tapi apa?
malah geje kaya sekarang ini, buka twitter, buka blog, buka tumblr
hiyaaaaaah
jaman sekarang emang susah ya
tiap ada niat buat ngerjainsesuatu, bawaannya males mulu.
hih.
gemes sama diri sendiri!
padahal kalo di-list, tugas kita tuh banyak banget lo.
buat webpage
buat pot pake ember
try out! argh (derita kelas duabelas noh)
dll
that damn list is waiting us! ckck.

salah siapa dong kalo kaya gini? hah? salah siapa?

love, ICHA

nyesel :d

ga penting juga sih ngepost beginian, tapiiiii aku nyesel ganti template.
LOLA banget sumpah!

ohya, quotes:
"hey, please making music not mocking music!"

*update*
udah ganti template! yay! mudah2an ga LOLA lagiiiiii =)

love, ICHA